I've been there
I know how it feels, the feeling of dread from the moment you wake up until the moment you go to sleep. The constant obsessional thoughts controlling and dictating your life. These thoughts suck you in and seem so real, they make you belief that you really have to listen and respond to these thoughts, or else your worst fears will be confirmed. I want to help you with your OCD for the simple reason that I'm a great candidate to do so. I have this condition myself but no longer suffer from it. This is a key point I want to make because don't believe anyone who says they can make your OCD go away as it simply doesn't work like that. However with the right help you'll be able to reach a stage where you're no longer affected in a negative way by your OCD. If this sounds like a place you'd like to arrive at then you've come to the right person.
I felt so much guilt, shame and anxiety attached to my OCD. Ten years ago when I was at the height of my suffering I literally just wanted to die as I thought what was the point of living if I constantly had to think about such terrible things all day long and believe they were true. I found myself avoiding certain places and people because they triggered my OCD. My OCD was controlling me and ruining my life, it sucked. I was desperate and kept on hitting brick walls. Every time I thought my OCD had gone it would come back and. It just seemed like nothing would work and that I was constantly being bullied by this invisible enemy. That's how I saw it as my enemy.